Well, it's been 6 days since my last radiation treatment, and it's safe to say this is the worst I've felt through the whole process. It's a little odd to think that the radiation is still doing it's little neutron dance in my face this long after finishing treatment, but they seem to be slam dancing pretty hard in there. My mouth is so sore and burned up inside that I can't really talk. The doctor had given me morphine and magic mouthwash, which has lidocaine, and I hadn't used either much through the whole process until now. The morphine is all gone and the mouthwash is nearly empty. I'm not sleeping more than a half hour at a time before the mucus builds up enough that it wakes me, choking. The fatigue is mostly gone, but has been replaced by plain old lack of sleep.
One thing I've noticed over the last few days, no matter how loudly or clearly I speak, every single person asks "what?" after every word or sentence, making me repeat myself and further tearing my tongue and cheeks apart. This happened before all this radiation crap, but obviously it's a bit more troublesome now. The really frustrating part is that if I don't repeat myself and just sit and wait five seconds, nearly every person finally answers the question or acknowledges what I had said, confirming that "what?" is just a knee-jerk response to everything. It was frustrating before, now it's infuriating and painful.
Kaia left yesterday. Back to Florida and school. Miss her already.
